Undelivered letter

::4:30am::

Somehow at this point i stil awake as i cant get into sleep... T__T must be the effect of greentea latte effect>>caffein<<>

Talking of a friend.... U are so busy that i dont even have a proper chance to say thank you. =)

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Dearest Dad,

How are you? Are u busy up there? Im kind of missing you now =) im doing fine here. I got fren who care of me and frens who listen to me when im having hard time.. I have frens who give motivation when im down.. and frens who keep helping me out when i face problem. Are these the blessing u gave me? yeah... i got it. U know i need friends the most. Please bless them toO =) They are those who shower me with love everyday and brighten my day.

Back at home, mum is fine. Im sure she misses u more than i do. Since after you went with the angles, mum was so tough. She go through all the up and down alone. She never tell us how she felt but i knew she had hard time. Me and koko both are now at KL. We always try to go back as often as we can but sometimes its just the matter of work. Please bless mum with a good health. Shes taken over ur role n act it very well. And grandma(mama), shes getting old and oldfolk's sick is coming. Her leg get pain more often,T_T At the last trip back to penang, i just realised her skin getting more n more wrinkled.and now she has to wear hearing aid. Its so heartaching when me n mum bring her to the Clarisound at Gurney to make her a pair of hearing aid. I knew, thats not she want. Im totally know how she felt. She keep asking the "Dr" if she can just wear 1 side of the hearing aid. But the "Dr" said n insist grandma to wear both side. Uncle want grandma to wear it...so..its just no choice but she hv to wear it. Its just felt like my heart is pinch by something so hard.... what can i do besides saying those encouraging words to grandma to makes her feel better.

Dii, im so sorry that I'd skip so much classes in this semester. yeah..my bad of going to bed so late everynight. the tuitions fees is increasing and yet im stil not appreciating all the lectures.=( Im so guilty now. Im not studying hard and give my best in quizes or midterm. Im deterioting......no! i must study hard to show mum n koko that im not wasting their $$$ If you were here, i wont be in the uni that im in now. Im sure u'll try ur very best to get the uni that i wanted to go in. but not the private uni.

If u were here, im sure the incident that happen last year will not occur. You'll be ensure everything was fine before i move in. housebreaking? totally wont occured. We are so careless that we dont even bother to lock our windows with paddlelock. no one can be blame with what had happened. But i knew mum was guilty that she didnt came with me on my 1st day in uni. If she is here she'll be monitor everything n ensure everything is safe. I always think "its ok, i can handle it by myself" but its always happen another way round. dad, its ok....i get to experience and learn alot of things as my life goes on. im learning from my mistakes.

Dad, do not worry bout me up there =) im your tough daughter.
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